I didn’t push music cause I was scared
Cause life had dealt me so many shitty cards I had been on the brink of giving up.
I didn’t know what I’d do with my life if it weren’t for music.
The passion it brings me
I want to forget everything except it when I’m in it.
The joy it brings me, makes me forget the pain of being low.
But I was actually terrified.
What ifs spun around my head.
I couldn’t eat
I’d truly lost my appetite
I found sleeping a task to do.
Upset my body won’t just keep on.
I settled for the right nows
Lost myself in a world of fake happiness
Until real happiness found me in the shape of myself
Then I was blessed with him to find happiness alongside.
Then I was forced to really tread through the dark sides of myself
Keep music in safe distance
Or bite that shotgun and the shooter
And do what I was created to-